It has really been quite a while since my last entry. I truly do not keep up with this blog anymore and for that I am sorry to those who read or have read mine for the length I have been doing this. New things on my end? Working at heb rio grande almost a year now(3 more days), dealing with a 14 month old little one with attitude, and debating on if single life is better then engaged life. Maybe thats just my way of venting about things. Randomly list things that are on my mind and then re look at them to decide if they are minor or major. To my readers though I actually am asking your advice. I need unbiased opinions from outside sources as I do not know what exactly to do right now. I know everyone says this love at first sight thing is soooo amazing. Well maybe I'm just more if I can't have it I try harder until I get it, then I'm bored after a while. I may be wrong but that seems to be the path lately. Is a relationship supposed to be this hard? What do you do if who your with can't keep a job for more then 5 or 6 months? I just don't know what to do or how to go about things. Maybe I love him as a person but not as a lover? This is what my advice question was for. To stay or not to stay? I know we all say we are never going anywhere but what happens when we get tired of putting up with everything? Or if you see an old friend who makes your heart skip when you thought you were in love with your significant other? What happens when the flirt in you comes out again but you still go home to the one you are with every night? I love him but not the way I used to. Maybe love isn't for me or maybe God just hasn't placed the right one in front of me. I truly don't know right now. So to recap for the advice::

1. Would you stay with someone who can't seem to hold a job for over 6 months?
2. Is he the one if someone else still gets you all nervous and fluttery?
3. Is this love or lust that we started?

Would love to hear your answers. If you are able to I'd prefer any comments to my email.

amber.bee91@hotmail.com

Thank you for those who give advice on this subject. Will check in soon!